...with the idea of it....

Since I've met this extraordinary women my mind has been full of magical thoughts.
Daydreams of a life together of bliss and wonder.

I'm in love. In love with the idea of R.

I've dreamt of the passionate courtship which can take place.
I've dreamt of asking her father if he'd allow me the honour of spending my life with his daughter.
I've dreamt of proposing to her a perfect fall setting. Under some orange and red Michigan leaves.
I've dreamt of publicly committing myself to her.
I've dreamt of sharing a home with her and our beautiful animals.
I've dreamt of caring for her in times of difficulty.
I've dreamt of having children with her.
I've dreamt of us sharing many moments of pride and thankfulness for what we created and have together.
I've dreamt of being that elderly couple who still walks down the street together holding hands.

I'm in love. In love with the idea of R.


I once posted this is in a previous blog. Nevertheless here are a couple of Leornard Cohen songs which compliment my feeelings on this autumn morning.



Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin
Dance me through the panic 'til I'm gathered safely in
Lift me like an olive branch and be my homeward dove
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love
Oh let me see your beauty when the witnesses are gone
Let me feel you moving like they do in Babylon
Show me slowly what I only know the limits of
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to the wedding now, dance me on and on
Dance me very tenderly and dance me very long
We're both of us beneath our love, we're both of us above
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to the children who are asking to be born
Dance me through the curtains that our kisses have outworn
Raise a tent of shelter now, though every thread is torn
Dance me to the end of love

Dance me to your beauty with a burning violin
Dance me through the panic till I'm gathered safely in
Touch me with your naked hand or touch me with your glove
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love
Dance me to the end of love
Please forgive the documentary styling. It's all I could find.



If you want a lover
Ill do anything you ask me to
And if you want another kind of love
Ill wear a mask for you
If you want a partner
Take my hand
Or if you want to strike me down in anger
Here I stand
Im your man

If you want a boxer
I will step into the ring for you
And if you want a doctor
Ill examine every inch of you
If you want a driver
Climb inside
Or if you want to take me for a ride
You know you can
Im your man

Ah, the moons too bright
The chains too tight
The beast wont go to sleep
Ive been running through these promises to you
That I made and I could not keep
Ah but a man never got a woman back
Not by begging on his knees
Or Id crawl to you baby
And Id fall at your feet
And Id howl at your beauty
Like a dog in heat
And Id claw at your heart
And Id tear at your sheet
Id say please, please
Im your man

And if youve got to sleep
A moment on the road
I will steer for you
And if you want to work the street alone
Ill disappear for you
If you want a father for your child
Or only want to walk with me a while
Across the sand
Im your man

If you want a lover
Ill do anything you ask me to
And if you want another kind of love
Ill wear a mask for you

Of course life is not all bliss and magic. All relationships achieve a plateau. I know it's not wise to get too caught up in my heart. But right now I am in this state of mind. No matter what happens, door 1 or door 2 (if you know what I mean) there WILL be very difficult times ahead. The thing of it is, no rewarding acheivment came without pain. I want to face that pain head on, without fear.